Circle

Those who've known me for years, they know that I am in the last month before my Day of Atonement (Yom Kippur)... (what a misnomer* that is, but English is English). As such, I find myself with much thoughts about the past, the future, changes, constants, and other meaningful and meaningless subjects.

But one thing I remember for the congregation I was a member of in my youth, was this song that would be heard at least once during the 'Days of Awe' (High Holy Days) I wanted to share it with folks, some of you already know it - there's nothing inherently religious about it, but then it could also be considered inherently religious.

http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/h/harry_chapin/circle.html

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* Why is it a misnomer? Because the name implies a falseness. It implies that there is only one day for which a person will be atoned. I do not think, for even a moment, that there is only one day set aside for this miracle.

Shema Yisrael...

{originally posted on http://www.seekersofsilence.net/news/shemayisrael}

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This discussion is based on the translation of "Adonai echod" as being "the Lord is One," as opposed to "the Lord alone."

For more information - http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shema_Yisrael

Translations and Hebrew were lifted from http://www.jewfaq.org/prayer/shema.htm - which contains the fullness of the prayer as it exists in many siddurs, please visit Tracey R. Rich's site. Unfortunately the request is made not to reproduce for anything other than personal, educational, non-commercial use "but may NOT be reproduced on other websites". As soon as I can replace the graphics I shall, however the transliterations and the translations are "common knowledge" items.

Background

Sh'ma Yis'ra'eil Adonai Eloheinu Adonai echad.
Hear, Israel, the Lord is our G-d, the Lord is One.


I continue to feel that this is not nearly enough....

"The Lord is One" trips me every time. I want to go one and say more. I don't feel it's enough to proclaim the Oneness of the Eternal. I feel the need to say MORE in that one line than what exists there currently. I know that there's much following that we also recite when saying the Shema as a prayer, but those verses from Torah aren't adding the two words I feel are needed to truly express my heartfelt understanding in prayer.

First, why add to what is in the Torah?
I do not wish to add to what is found in Deuteronomy 6:4. That is Torah, and should remain as such. Yes, I know this prayer is lifted from The Scroll, but still, I've seen already some additions in our prayer form for the Shema that's not direct from this section of Deuteronomy.

What addition?

In many siddurs you will see the line:

Barukh sheim k'vod malkuhuto l'olam va'ed

Blessed be the Name of His glorious kingdom for ever and ever. This addition interrupts the passage we are reciting from and gives us the form of prayer. Without this, I would simply have left alone and nodded to this being a recitation from a parshah of Torah.

But I would like to add to the prayer form. My heart surges when I say the Shema, and it wants to append to "The Lord is One" that "The Lord is All."

The Lord is ALL

Is G-d separate from that which G-d created? I can't see this as being possible, for I was taught "G-d is everywhere." If I broaden my view, and allow these thoughts to run in their various tangents, it presents a myriad of possibilities.

I am reminded that a Torah Scholar searches for meaning, not just in the letters, but in the spaces around the letters (a corollary of "meaning, not just in the words, but the silences between" from which we get our name).

Science teaches that atoms are the building blocks of our universe, but there are spaces even around atoms. Such spaces are important. It is my conjecture that G-d is both in the atom, and in the spaces around the atom. Thus each item that we see has G-d in it.

Yes, this can be a dangerous road. Care must be taken to ensure that one does not grab an apple and say "This contains G-d, therefore I shall worship it." Simply for the fact that the Divine is IN something does not mean that the Divine is limited or constrained to that object, for is not G-d everywhere? This means IN as well as AROUND as well as ON all at the same time. This is a mighty definition for such a small word in English as "all." In fact, it may be easier for us to view that we and everything we perceive is IN G-d. Surely the thought that Universe is part of G-d is not too much of a stretch?

There will be many more thoughts on this, and I will refine as I have time, but this is the roughest sketch I can make, and I only make it so I don't forget what I heard echoing back from that little voice that is my soul.

Current Musings - 18th of Sh'vat 5770

{originally posted on http://www.seekersofsilence.net/news/editme-1}

"Get back your faith again, you have the power to believe, another dissident, take back your evidence, it has no power to deceive." - Heaven by Live

"I'm alive for you. I'm awake because of you." - Awake by Godsmack

Why is it that when listening to something I tend only to catch a few elements and then those elements are all that resonate?

For over a week whenever I brought Modeh Ani (a morning prayer) into my mind, I heard the line from Godsmack. Every time I hear someone telling me how they've ceased to believe in a greater power, there's Live echoing in my head.

Lately though, there's been a huge change in my life. I spent many years living on a precipice of faith. Part of my soul swinging toward the ancient ways of the Celts, part swinging toward a shamanic view of the world, and the rest of me barely holding to the traditions of my youth. This let me be very open minded about other peoples view points, but I was closed to the view Judaism as anything but a remnant.

I thought of Jews as very closed minded and lost my faith. I kept looking at media evidence, and failed to realize that religions can grow. I finally thought I had found a new path that others hadn't walked that would allow me to marry my pagan ways to a Jewish tradition I loved. Amazingly, as I'm describing it to my mother, she tells me such already exists.

A bit more research, and yes, there's a small minority of Jews that heed the voice of Shekeinah. A bit more research shows that there are Jews that recognize the four elements of Earth, Air, Fire, and Water. I allow myself to wake up anew.

Before talking to my mother, and doing this research, I had thought to see if I could find those who thought like me, and sway them to joining me in my home for quiet Shabbat morning services and Torah discussion. Now I know there's groups of the meeting, and it's my job to find those groups, not create them.

I feel as if I can truly take back my faith again. As if I can call myself a Jew, and mean it once more. No longer am I a Pagan Jew, now I am simply a Jewish Mystic. I see the glorious divinity that surrounds me, and I can embrace it as I always wished, and feel it embracing me. This is what allowed me to wake up and wish to sing prayers.